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He was hidden in His humanity, yet His humanity desired our love and we did not see what He wanted until the lance had passed into His Heart. + |
I love watching planes take off in videos on Youtube. My understanding of the phenomena involved is the same as everybody else's. so I am grateful to be able to understand at all.
Similarly, I love when Jesus shares His pain with me on Good Friday as He has done this year. He does not choose to share the bleeding, and that is fortunate because it would be messy, and, unlike St. Padre Pio, I lack a community, being a hermit, and the service rendered by such a community.
One of the sweetest impressions one gets from movies on the subject of Padre Pio, is the respect and dignity rendered by them toward one of their own. Let us be clear about stimata; they are a share of Jesus' Body and consequently, of His passion, and one way or another, His bleeding and His pain.
This year i turned 78, and He has been most generous sharing with me, and I do not deserve it. He has allowed joy to seep in around the edges with quiet little moments in which to enjoy His presence; the pain is like a violin to a fine wine or a sumptuous chocolate bar. I don't see the future as some have, but I can guess what may be around the corner, and it is frightful to say the least. People will be desperate to find one person sound and whole enough of mind that they might attempt to find some sense in the mélange from him or her. Be clear, the sharing they want cannot be, and God will not grant it except if it meets His criteria, and He judgment is high indeed.
People have already been suffering enough, or I would not suffer anything consequential. As it is, I can suffer rejection, physical pain and ill judgement enough for any ten men, and endure it by myself. There is only one person I would like for company as it is, and He is my divine Lord, Jesus. People respond in all sorts of way to His presence, many having no idea who He is, yet they can find comfort and delight in Him the same as me, and it is lovely to celebrate that together in Garden.
Some people do not make the connection between the pleasure of His company and the presence of Jesus in prayer, and that is a gift of contemplation in which all manner of wonders may be seen, stigmata being only one of them. They share His Body, who suffer His passion and His Spirit, and He does not spare much for their sake. Padre Pio suffered day and night, and frequently at night at the hands of evil and demons, when he would be mercilessly beaten and mistreated, so that at one point he required surgery to repair a hernia, a procedure he underwent without anesthesia. We can glimpse his state in the Mass he celebrated with such devotion that his face wat stained with tears, contorted in suffering. Only a block of wood could be impervious to what was seen by people then. It was silent, very silent in the church during Mass with Padre Pio. People knew He was present, though it is unlikely many had any vision during that time, to explain.
And again, visions are often manifest in the lives of those who lived to pray and prayed with Jesus at their side, united into His happiness and His life itself. That is the essence of a mystical life. Life as a mystic has no subtitles, ordinarily, but there again, there are signs enough that any observer of someone in that kind of prayer cannot be mistaken. A mystic may be defined as someone who shares in the life of Jesus by experiencing His life by His grace and charity. People who were around Padre Pio while he was praying saw him transfigured, and awesome things often happened in his prayers.
A person can share in great joy and happiness, who share in His life through prayer. I know, because I shared with people whom I would unequivocally call mystics. There are many places in Scripture of this week that it is stated strange things happened during the time of His passion.
For everyone, we are called to share together in the penitence of forgiving and being forgiven, which is to say, that they shared in His healing power through means none of us can understand. To forgive is to shed mercy like a rain the desert, and forgive like men freed from the yoke of slavery and the lot of the starving and dying, impoverished and some blessed to have their burden borne by Christ Himself.
He bore all our pain and suffering, but it is a special gift when He bore our wounds and bleeding pain, and shared with us so we could witness His absolute solidarity with the human race. All this evil has forsaken and repudiated, unable to endure the goodness and holiness of Jesus, let alone His light and peace which are His abundant gift to those disposed by divine love to be enabled.
He has enabled me. He loves me and forgives me and the human race may witness His love if they wish, if they can stand to repudiate evil and we can endure His embrace, pierced and bleeding on this day we commemorate forever.
Sin is to obtain what is desired, forsaking Christ in the process, since either we choose Jesus in a moment, or we choose our own gratification, hoping He does not see and does not know. But He does see, and He does know, and all of Heaven does, and certainly those who choose suffering instead of pain and loneliness instead of His company and His light. But there is a difference between foregoing a good thing for His sake and sinning to satisfy our needs.
I bear what He chose to give me, and I have found impervious joy in having chosen, and having been granted the opportunity to choose the divine Lord, beaten, forsaken and forgotten, denied and not chosen. What little things such treasure rest upon; it is amazing that such little implements as nails in hands and feet, and the one great lance that opened the Heart of Jesus the Lord so we may be physically present to Him in our choices and He may be present to us in His embrace.
Make no mistake, the wickedness of evil is very plain to see, and contemptuous of all who serve Jesus Christ. His light waits to fall on the dawn of this day and all souls good or bad, with the hope that He may be reunited to those who have gone astray. Therefore let us do penance denying ourselves little things, remembering what He chose to forsake so He could bless His cross with obedience to His Father. If we accept our cross, our portion of is nails and lance, it cannot be otherwise than that He will rescue us from evil and keep us safe in that way which is eternal union with the bliss of Love.
The world He created was not evil; it was perfect, created out of His perfect love as an example and statement to all who would serve Him in life. He has spoken that word to us, and we must still finish our trials by which we attempt to make the right choices in life, and to ask to be forgiven so that He knows we have chosen Him and desire to be with Him, and not with the ones who have forsaken life.