Uncertainty

 It is not true that the universe is in charge of itself; God is in control of the universe, and our perception of it and understanding of it are dependant on God, however we like it. I can understand that people are uncomfortable with  uncertainty, but uncertainty often figures largely in the agonies we endure.

Many would rather limit the extent of uncertainty so as to suffer less anxiety. If forgiveness of sin has taught me anything, it is that being forgiven and asking for forgiveness frees a person like nothing else can.

That freedom is the certainty of His love, ironically. He loves us, without a doubt, and He is capable of infinite love and patience. He confronted uncertainty and doubt, fear and depression on the night in which He was arrested and endured a night in the midst of den of snakes, all full of the venom of hatred, and the next day, He was consigned to the romans who told them to crucify Him themselves. In the end, the romans had to do the crucifying, and they were the first to be washed in His blood, and the plasma that gushed from Jesus side when the lance pierced His side and opened His Heart so as to ensure His death.

He relied on His few friends to remove His Body and anoint it with the oil and spices of traditional Jewish burial. and He ultimately was laid to rest in the sepulcher.

He endured everything we can endure, and some things we cannot imagine. He comforted those who died after a just life but could not enter heaven. Then, He rose from the dead and appeared to the apostles. He has removed ambiguity and uncertainty in every possible permutation. Therefore, as God, He is able to deal with all uncertainty, and capable of understanding our feelings and our sufferings as we wait for Him, and hope that we might live up to His expectations. We must live to learn where we are in the scheme of things. Small as we might be in all the vastness of the universe, that smallness only makes Him love us more, and extends graces that save us, before we have had the chance to earn them or ask them.